The costs of being a transgender woman can be overwhelming at times.
Christmas is upon us and I will be without my family as usual. My adopted daughter has not talked with me for 10 years and my brother and sisters have rejected me because I am a woman.
Yes it can be difficult when I hear all the plans my co-workers have. They will be having family celebrations and I am happy for them.
For many of us who are transgender, there are no family celebrations. We lament our losses and for many just hope this time of year passes quickly.
I have described my life is sometimes like living on an island far away from people. At times this OK because when I in that manic chaos state I really don’t want to be around people.
Yes I miss family celebrations of Christmas, especially with my daughter. I am sure she will have plans and I am happy for her. Maybe one of these days she will contact me.
What I know is that at this time of year I need to be thankful for friends and the courage to live an authentic life. Was being rejected by family too much. In my depressed mind I may think yes it is too much. I have to see that my being a woman is more important, because it has stopped the Gender Dysphoria.
So I have given myself a gift that is too precious.
Merry Christmas to all of you and to myself.