XIX Solitary Journey

This is a solitary journey in becoming myself.
Yes friends have been with me especially one very special woman.   Sis I owe you so much. 

Maybe the title is a masking of what I feel in this time of my journey.   I say I enjoy living single and it is nice not having the politics of a relationship or roommate.   Yet I will invest myself in building a special friendship and enjoy the feeling of getting to know a special person.   I now understand how and why women hurt so much when they feel they are losing that person.  I understand why we invest so much to have special friends and when the divide begins we feel emotional loss. 

My journey has taken me from the isolating person that could never enjoy friends to a vulnerable woman that gets torn apart when a special person decides to go in a different direction.  

I  feel that I am on this journey alone again and I will reach out to my sis and others to help me. 

I  know someday someone will smile at me in a way that will remind me that I still can invest part of me into something special.  

In the past I would have obliterated myself,  now I have a special sister and other women who will understand.  

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