I consider myself to be a a strong and confident woman. I try to roll with life’s challenges. Being a transgender woman is not easy and I have to smile even if my heart is hurting.
I sometimes think people don’t realize is the inside of my tough chick veneer is s feeling woman.
I think there is the proverbial elephant in the room that we try not to discuss and that is relationships. Yes I can want someone special in my life and yet it like the elusive brass ring on a carousel, almost within reach yet so impossible to attain.
I realize that I will need to have the Gender Confirmation Surgery before I will feel comfortable and attractive as a woman.
My experience with dating has been dismal at best. 2 scammers, and a couple of transgender women that I thought were certifiably out there.
I am realistic about my chances. I know people don’t want to date transgender women. I am not a 20 something woman, I have MS and I am a recovering alcoholic.
The wonders of dating sites have left me pissed and discouraged. Guys message me and I have heard it all. I shake my head because I say woman seeking woman. Yet I get lots if stupid hits. It doesn’t take a lot of intelligence to realize that they want to have sex with a transgender woman. This must be in their “bucket list”
Women can be as interesting also. The best comment I have heard from a woman is that I probably couldn’t talk with me at her level. I guess being a regulatory economist is not good enough.
I know the odds of me finding someone is kind of slim.
I do know that my heart can be happy because I am living a full life as a woman. It can also be broken especially when a wonderful woman is just out of reach.
More to be posted.
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